If tomorrow never comes

Some of you might have heard this song by Ronan Keating. A wonderfull song, very nice melody and very nice lyrics, i just remembered when i was thinking of how should i start my post. A very nice love song, but this is not the reason why i like it. It is because of the question:
If Tomorrow never comes. If i would die tonight, what will happen?
This question is making some rounds in my mind. I was wondering about it.
If this is my last day, and if i would know it what would i feel? What would i do?
I think i would go crazy, thinking of all the things that i want to do in this last houres. But really, ask yourself are you prepared to die tonight?

Did i thanked Allah today for what i have?
Did i pray so that i can meet Allah without fear?
Have i read Qoran everyday, understood it and followed what it says?
Have i done what was asked from me, so that i can close my eyes and say the Shahada?
Do i feel satisfied with my life so that i can meet Allah sub7anah and be among the ones who He will look at them with (3ein El ra7ma)?
Did i return everything i took from others so that i don't carry any Amana with me?
Does my family know how much they mean to me?
Will they know that i love them, my husbend, my wife, my kids, my parents, brothers and sisters?
Will my friends miss me because i was a good friend for them?
Will my children know that i would have given my life to see them happy?
Will my wife/husbend know that she/he are the best thing that happened in my life?
If you will be able to say yes to all of this question you will be able to die now, if not!!!!!!

Imagine this....

You were sitting at home this morning, you were angry because your partner forgot to do something for you that you asked him to. You started to fight with him, you said bad words and left him hurt. You left the house, you didn't pray nor have you thought about Allah this morning. You started your car and then....... you died in a car accident. And then what?

Will you be able to meet Allah like this?
How will your partner feel when he thinks about the last moments with you?
What will the people say? will your close ones feel sad and miss you? or will you just be another one who just died?
Did you leave a hole in the life of those you know or not?

Forgiveness.

First i want to wish everyone of you a happy 3eid, thank your for your wishes, i was trying some houres ago to post about the 3eid, i had some troubels but now it is working.

Today was 3arafa, i wished to be standing there with the Hujaj. Praying for forgiveness and feeling that great feeling of being a guest of Al Rahman. Seing that holy places and visiting my Prophets grave.

Forgiveness, this is what we ask Allah for at these days, and this is what is asked from us, it is 3eid, forgive the ones who made you wrong.

To be honest, i had some troubels last days with someone, i will not speak high about myself, but i really was nice with her, i have treated her right, and i tried to help her, but at the end, she told me things that i will never forget, she is not rational, she is not even a friend of mine, we had to work together for something, and her work was not correct, and when i told her that she started to insult me, i had only one thing for her, 7asby Allah wa ne3m el wakiel. I was asking my self today, forgiveness is not only for 3eid and then i can go back to being angry, no. But i am still very angry, she was anfair to me, and i know if i would see her again, that i will not be fine again with her after what she said, i found out how difficult it is to forgive. i am not able to do that right now. May Allah forgive me and her for what she has done to me, and may Allah help me to learn to forgive.

This deserves some moments of your time

Libyan Art.

Today i want to point out a libyan artist, i don't want to write about a painter nor an actor, i want to talk about a different type of Art . Maybe i wasn't aware of it or i wasn't interested, i don't know. Maybe there is not enough advertisements made for Art exhibitions, maybe i don't know the right people to tell me about such events, i know (Dar el Fonon) of Tariq El Sekka, the other place that i know is (De villa) - i think this is what it was called - in Gergarish, but i think it has been closed years ago.
I cannot remember the first time i saw an Exhibition for this young Artist, what i can remember is her exhibtion in De Villa, i went there with my friends to have a look, while i was there, one of the famous libyan actors came in, he was walking around in the show rooms and after he finished his 5 min round he asked the responsible person there: “ Emmala el lau7at wen?"
To be honest, i couldn't hold my self, i started to laugh. As the flyers, the advertisements and name on the entrance were clearly statiting that it is a Ceramics exhibition, and this man was asking for the paintings!!!!!

I know that there is a department for Ceramics at the Art Faculty, but i know also that there were not so many intersted students and that only a few of them worked in their field after they have finished their study.
Hadia Gana, a young and talented Libyan Artist, specialized in Ceramics. She studied at the Faculty of Art and she continued with her passion after she had finished her study. She made many exhibitions inside and outside Libya, Tripoli, Naloot, Malta and France. She made herself a Name from her good and professional work.
I was only able to attend three of her exhibitions, but i try to follow up her work, because it is interesting to see her continuous developments and her style changes. She continued her study and got her Master's degree from the UK, and she is now working in two faculties and in an Art school if i am not mistaken.
I tried to google her in the internet, to see a history or some works from her but i was hardley able to find something, and i felt sorry that there is no main website where the Libyan Artists and their works are presented.
Below you will find two links for two articels about her in two different websites, where she is mentioning the effect of her surrounding on her work, i wanted to mention this to tell you that she is the daughter of Ali Gana, El Ustad Ali Gana, i don't think that anyone who studied in the Department of Architecure in El Fateh University or anyone who had the chance and the pleasure to know him personally could ever forget this Man, Allah yar7ma, i have never met a person who had such a peacefull and kind atmosphere around him, by the way Ghazi mentioned El Ustad Ali in one of his Podcasts after he passed away.

The two pictures here are the only ones that i have found on the web, if you take a look at the one above? Do you think that the stones are natural ones? take a close look, I think this exhibition was in in the Old city one year ago.

And the one below is her Master's Project.

I wish her further success in her future work, and i hope that i will be in Libya for her next exhibition.

http://www.kulalfonon.com/dalits3.asp?id_mgal=4960&id_page=7

http://albiytmag.com/details.php?&count=22&id_pages=6&i=1

Hijab.... cheating......bad speaking.

Hijaab.... cheating.... bad speaking.
let me define it, Hijaab is hiding your beauty from strange Men, Cheating is copying other peoples work and calling it yours, bad speaking -gheiba- is to speak intentialy bad about others behind their back to put them in a bad position.
What is the view of Islam about these three?? Hijab, some say it is a must, some say not, Cheating, is clear not allowed, the Prophet- Salla Allah aleih wa Sallam- said: "man Ghashana faleisa minna". About Gheiba, there Koran verses are clear, it is as if your are eating your brothers meat.
My point about this is that i find it strange how people put the most weight about Hijab, oh, that girl is not a good girl, she doesn't wear Hijab, it doesn't matter that she is a kind and honest girl who doesn't hurt others.
Ok, actually this topic is in my mind for a couple of years, one of my friends had this situation, while in secondary school, the wasn't wearing Hijab, one time a teacher, Ikhsaia Igtima3ia came to the class to talk about Hijab, they were saying how bad these girls are who doesn't wear hijab, they instead of sitting houres in front of the mirror preparing theier hair they should sit and study, some of the other -Hijab and Jubba wearing girls- were agreeing, yes these girls are not good girls, just because of theier looking. What made me wonder, is that at one of the final Exams these Hijab wearing girls were asking the one without Hijab for answers, i know that my friend doesn't cheat because she believes in the Hadieth, so who is here the right and who is the wrong?
Just because you are wearing your Hijab you think that everything else is allowed? you can talk about others, cheat as long as you seem in front of the people Muthajba? i am not talking here about those who believe in it and are trying to be good people, i am talking about those ones who do it just to look good in front of others but the inside is not clean. I think that it is more important to be clean from Inside than wearing your Hijab or shorten your trousers, at the university some of the ones who had short traousers and long bears were cheating too, is that right????
Don't miss understand me, i believe in Hijab too, i just believe that if you want to be a good Muslim you should first understand what Islam is really about, and not only choose the things that are convenient to you.

Life stops you from time to time

From time to time the life stops you, it tells you nothing is forever, we live our normal life, wish for good things, work, study, pray, believe, lough, cry but from time to time there is a bigger thing that stops you, when someone from the family dies, when someone close dies, you stop, you realize that nothing is forever, nobody lives forever, there will be an end, we will all go to another life, wheather this life is good or bad depends on us, have we done what Allah wanted us to do? where we good people? where we kind to other people? where we honest? did we treat people in a good way? where we responsible people? where we doing our best in our everyday work? nothing else matters, not the money that we are earning, not the cars we are driving, not the brand clothes we are wearing, not meaning that we have to leave the life, but we have to balance, our behavior and work is first, then the treasures of the life, be sure that we do our best, so that if our day comes we are prepared and we are not afraid of meeting Allah.

Learning from Mistakes.

In the past week i have made a mistake, i said something really ugly about another person, in my anger i didn't knew what i was saying, in my case writing, and by mistake the words reached the person i was talking about.

I never felt so shame of my self, i really had a bad time after that, waiting for the reaction from the other person. Now i feel better, i apologized and i really ment it, i think it was a lesson from my God, to try not to ever ever again say ugly words about someone else. If i want to discribe my anger, first i have to calm down until i can control my self, and second i will try not to use any bad words, even if the other person was wrong, i don't have to be as wrong as him, i will try to be just honest and subjective about what made me angry.

Judging by Name.

Last days i saw something that made me think.

I have read a comment on a person whose family is well known, the comment was very judgmental and have put a bad light on that person. I know this person, and the things wrote about him are completly wrong. I would say that they were written on purpose just to hurt, but why?

Why are we doing this? Why do we judge on others just because they have money, they have power, they have ideas, they have knowledge, they have luck, easily they have more than we have. Why it is easier for us to believe the bad things than to believe in the good things? How come we lost the trust in people??

Why do we feel jealous when we meet a person who has more money than we do? Why is it easier to say that the money that they have is stolen and not clean instead of saying that they might have worked for this money?? Why do we think the worst first??

During University the ones with rich daddies where treated differnetly. " his father will buy him the best car, his father will pay for his grades, his father send him to France for a vacation." And because we don't have a rich daddy, we have to take the micro we put our anger on them. Maybe they were just nice people, honest, straight and responsible.

Is this fair?? try to be honest?? from the relligion point of view is this right??

I will not give the answers, i think the answers are clear?? We are jealous. We can just easily say this is life, some people own more some own less, everyone has his part in life and everyone will take exaclty what God wants him to take. Isn't life easier this way??? trying to feel satisfied with what he have. Leaving the others alone?? What would be case if it is us who are rich?? if the others say about us that we are stealing??

Ask your self are you judging by Name??? are we fair by doing this??? do we know the truth or are we just jealous??? Are we really looking for the truth???

Have you heard of the BOBs???

DW (deutsche welle) is looking for the best of blogs, in different categories, one of these categories is best podcast, and one of the nominees is the libyan writer Ghazi Geblawi who has been blogging for while, but he is not only nominated for the best arabic blog also for the best podcast worldwide.

If you want to support him and vote for him pls go the follwing link and vote for Ghazi.

http://www.thebobs.com/index.php?l=en&s=1155503109924847OMDFOOVR-NONE

We all wish him best of luck.

Update

Last time i checked the voting results, Ghazi had the most votings in both the best podcast and the best arabic blog.

I wish the best for all the bloggers who have put alot of effort to make a good blog, and i am happy that we have also a libyan blogger who is nominated.

Having a vision.

I have a vision, i want to make a difference, i want to make things better.
I live outside, i see how things can be done here and i am wondering why i all of this can't be realized even in libya.
I am driving and following the rules here, in Libya " are you kidding, if i put the belt my friends will lough at me." I am writing my exams without trying to copy from anyone, in Libya " one of my friends got angry because i didn't want to help for the exams "
It seems that people have two personalities, one in Libya and one outside, i am looking for the straight, God fearing, responsible and honest libyan who is willing to try and work.
Is there anyone outside there who feels that i am talking to him and who wants to help too?
Let's us put the building blocks, let us find starting points.
Help us to point out the good and honest poeple to encourage them to stay like this so that they don't feel alone.